Im trying. Please believe me.

I have not forgotten about this site.
This site seems to be my only and little communication with the world,
and I appreciate you all probably more than you can guess.

I havent been around, and I apologize.
I havent even been at my house really.
I do not want to speak about it,
and there is nothing to really speak about.
I dont know how much longer I can do this.

Im trying.
This will change.
Things will get better.
Maybe soon enough I can be brave again,
spill my heart.