Saturday, July 08, 2006

Warning: I cant tell anyone what they want to hear.

So what can I tell you all? You ask me for advice in hard times.
What do I do?
Focus on evaporating.
Becoming less and less until there is nothing else to feel what you feel.
Try to escape, always escape.
Escaping must be nice.

Why still be here?
Fight until you cant fight anymore.
Exhaustion is your worst enemy.
If all else fails, plead.
There is no hero here,
no one to save you, despite what others say or think.
There is only you and the antagonist.

Let the pain envelop you.
Each new wave is another few seconds to make it through.
Stare. Count. Count to 10, 100, 1000.
Hope he gets what he wants.
Be glad your face is hidden under thousands of pounds of guilt, pillows and sheets,
and no one can see your tears.
He can smell your fear, they all can.
Feel your pretty hair entangled and knotted in his fingertips.
Dont forget how to breathe.

Realize you have failed again.
Realize what you are, who you are.

Deal with it.


Blogger RomanceWriter said...

Wow girl! That was a powerful piece of work you posted.
I like the line that starts with
Be glad your face....

the most.

You are off to a great start with your blog.

Bye for now,

9:35 AM  
Blogger crimsonflaw said...

"Stare. Count. Count to 10, 100, 1000."

truly beautiful...

may the room guard well its sudden worth of silence...

11:12 PM  
Blogger Maia said...


1:45 PM  
Blogger Payned said...

That was fantastic!

7:24 PM  
Blogger Marj aka Thriver said...

Thanks for visiting my blog and leaving your kind words in a comment. I like your poem--it is powerful. I look forward to reading more from you.

3:39 PM  
Blogger Marj aka Thriver said...

Thanks for your interest in the Blog Carnival Against Child Abuse. The deadline for submissions is Monday, July 17. Posts are accepted for survivor stories (must be survivors who were under 18 at the time of abuse, r*pe, etc.), poetry, healing & therapy, etc.

You can go directly to the Blog Carnival submission form at or see my blog posts with instructions at: and You can e-mail me at Hope to "talk" to you later!

8:21 AM  
Blogger Jerry said...

I like your photography. Do you have a Flickr account?

7:40 AM  
Blogger Amin said...

Your writing is powerfully disturbing.

I'm still not sure whether this is fictional, or an account of your earlier life, but the writing itself is utterly captivating. And how well you express learned hopelesness. It's palpable.

Disturbing, quite disturbing.

1:00 AM  

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